read each and every single one of my past entries.
3 yrs has gone just like tat.

wat had i done in life?
wat had i accomplish in life?
nothing.

sometime just think im a burden to everywhere, everyone.
a disturbance.
rubbish that took up so much space.

failure.
failure in life.
failure to being a good daughter.
failure to being a good girlfriend.
failure to being a good friend.

used.
my whole life is about being used.
should get used to it by now.
but.
i always feel so hurt.

my past.

my present.

2 failures.

is my future going to be a failure too?

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i really miss u girl.
i really miss the times we can just hug in the middle of everywhere.
i really miss the times we rush down to bugis to shop n take neoprints before we rush back to class.
i really miss the times u will always be there for me.
i really miss the times we eat our roti prata together during lunch break.
i really miss the times we are together.
we always have so much time together.
how we have to create a new folder for each other for our pics.
really miss u alot.


8 days.
not a long time.
but dunoe y.
first day onli.
i started to miss my daddy n mummy so much.
wat if something happen to them?
i will be all alone.
nv once i get back home late.
iron my clothes.
go home straight after work.
they din call me.
got a shock wen i come back on the second day from work.
1 joss-stick from each "pot" is not lighted up.
still standin straight n unburn.
even though i remember lightenin up all 9 joss sticks.
toilet was filled with moths.
the first thing that came into my mind.
wat happen to them?
realli afraid that something will happen to them.
everyday wish to the tiao gong, the god of mercy and my ancestors.
"hope my parents will have fun but please hope that they are safe"


my baby.
once again i broke my promise.
promise to be more tolerant towards u having ur exams.
i realli hope tat i can be someone u can b proud of.
trying to do my best in making u happy.
hoping that u will feel better.
but i realli scare that sometime u will feel fan bcoz of my presence.
blame it on my thinkings. on my fears.
im sorrie.
i make u upset again.
i really miss the old us.
i realli miss the times we are happy.
i realli miss u.
i realli miss everything.
i realli hope we can b happi faster.
i realli miss u so much.
left a few days more le.
jia you baby.
u can do it de.

caught a crazy girl on 3:49 AM.