wondering about alot of things now.
many tings r rushing into my mind..
y am i doing this?
y am i doing tat?
y do i always wan to make him so upset?
y do i always wan to make things difficult for him..
y does he have to make me feel so upset..
y does he wan to make me feel so hurt..


thats relationship..
like wat jocelyn always sae..
double the happiness.. double the sadness..


hes realli a veri sweet guy..
very concern.. very attentive to me..
he realli love to do small actions that many ppl wont do..
juz love it..
when eating fish.. he wil take the bone out from the fish before putting it on my plate..
forcing me to drink water everytime im at his place knowig that i seldom drink..
sendin me to schl and picking me up..
jealous over the guys arnd me..
i love the way he looks at me.. de adoration..
open the drink can for me
pei me eat 2 pcs chicken meal..
pei me drink milk tea..
indulge in sinful food..
go shopping together..
making plans together.. *i wil pray for u.. regarding ur relatives*
plan the future..
sharing knowledge..
sharing common interest..
wen he kiss my head/hairs..
wen he sajiao.. he can juz make my heart melt.. im crazy over him sajiaoing..
and really many many more..
though de r.s is a short one.. compare to those 2, 3 yrs..
we actualli have a veri fulfilling one..
meeting almost everyday eversince we first met..
how we first met..
how we r so childish infront of each other..

the only place i feel secure.. is to be in his arms..
love it wen he hug me tight..
feel so secure.. so warmth
how i can slp in his arms for hours at the same position.. and he wont feel numb.. the feelin is so rite..



sista say im veri emotionalli attached to him..
i agreed..
hes so involved in my life that i cant possibly know how i feel if he suddenly out of my life..
yet..
bcoz of my selfishness.. i always choose to give him up.. knowin tat i will fall more for him as days goes by.. and the feeling of him leaving me wil hurt me even more.. but i shall overcome this.. as wat ppl always sae.. love as though u nv love b4.. and wen love hurts.. u know that you truly love someone..
the thoughts of him dun believe in us.. hurts me too.. baby.. i noe that is not me that u dun belive.. is always de guys arnd me.. but please.. do believe in our r.s.. we have walk so far.. the r.s is something u shld b able to trust..

both of us understand how vulnerable and fragile a r.s can be..
how one person can affect the whole r.s
and how one outsider can affect the r.s
lets not let us affect the r.s
b strong.. so that the outsiders cannot break into the r.s too


lets work things out together..
build the dream tat we plan..
b each other's motivation..
2 yrs down.. u will never knowww....


i know i have found you..

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