actualli wanted to sae i muz be positive.. muz b positive...
muz b positive..
i can i can..
but y muz i always get something to block my way to b more positive??

after talking to jomel ger todae..
i tot im alrite le..
ok le..
no more sad feeling..
no more complicated feeling.. coz jomel talks so so much senses to me..
but rite now..
i shaken again..
juz bcoz i see things tat i dun wanna see..

i make a promise to myself..
forget every unhappi things i haf in the past..
remembered the memories..
remember every good memories tat i had in the past..
i wan to erase all the bad things..
left all the happi thing..

from now..
muz forget all de bad things..
jai you jai you!!!
coz biwei.. u can do it..

*my happi life*
my netball period.. whereby i play for schl team.. play against the teachers during national day.. got myself a name in my schl netball team"the start shooter".. i haf so much fun.. i miss those days where i together with my teammates haf so much so much chemistry within each of us.. we noe our frenz is running without seeing them visually.. netball.. is my life in sec..

concept camp.. my lame grp lead by my "lao gong" vincent and me.. the lamest grp u will ever find.. i can still remebered our cheers.. wats our cheer: "cheer" wats our cheer again: "cheer again" our kids?? 14.. each with a name.. from lame 1 to lame 14.. thats our kids name.. our excess time after lunch is not learning new cheers, learning new songs.. but talking abt lame jokes.. who will ever think of saying so much lame, racist jokes during a camp.. even till now.. my kids stil will call me mummy wen they see me at fc6.. of coz not forgetting.. our soooo many os!!!

jomel.. my bested fren in poly.. who will ever do stupid things like wat we did every fridae b4 dunoe wat lesson.. during the 2 hours break.. we haf a veri fast lunch.. den chiong all da way to bugis to take neoprints.. shop shop abit.. den go back for class in 2 hours time.. do projects together.. with the temptation of cakes!! and in the end of our so called discussion.. wat we had talked abt is cakes n other stuffs not related to our projs.. *smiling to myself* 2 yrs past so fast.. times where she juz called n scream into my eardrums wen i answered her calls.. or the times we juz hug in the middle of fc or even play "catching".. shes always so readily giving me a hug wenever i need it..

my parents.. they r reali nice parents.. even though its truth tat ppl will quarrel.. tats human ma.. haha.. not everyone can b like me who can joke and "piss" my parents off..

i juz realised tat im smiling...

the fairytale'06.. the memoirs of geisha.. the pavilion.. the first kiss.. the first hug.. esplanade.. formal wear.. the rings.. vday.. our combined luck during new yr.. the anti bgl.. mr sp**m.. the many many photos.. the piggyback outside vjc.. the rooftop of somewhere.. counterstrike.. cycling.. the running after bus 2.. y i named him the monster.. my first parachute material.. the names we get for each other.. my support in public transport... the "love u" after each n every calls.. the stroll.. our "window shopping".. the definition of shopping.. n so much more.. i nv tot tat i can think so much.. the tots juz keep rushing back into my mind.. how we first met.. wats the first sentence we sae to each other.. 3 mths flies so fast.. juz thinking of it. juz make me feel so warmth..

dbit2b15.. i can still remmebered the times where each n everyone of us stay in schl til soo soo late.. to do our projs.. to play games.. halep each other up.. wen we finish our presentation.. we go play pool.. and on 4 laptop with our charger plug into the pool electricity plug.. how we make a room stink like hell by buying kfc.. and eat in the classmates.. the soo soo soo many outings, movies, dinner.. chalet.. so much fun!!!

i aso can remembered all the notti things tat i did..

like wen we were young.. me n my cousins playing catching.. jonathon was the catcher.. n wen he caught me.. i juz sae.. im dun wan to play le.. haha.. i gt such bad attitude since so young manx.. he being the youngest kid den juz cried immediately.. haha.. oppx..

how i bullied my maid.. haha.. tats wat my mom told me.. tat my bloog gt something called the abusing virus.. haha.. i actualli forgotten abt it liao la.. but my mom somehow refresh my memory a little bit.. haha.. i actualli ask my maid carry this n tat.. my tat maid beri nice to me.. everytime played with me.. tell me her story.. her bf.. her watever la.. haha.. but my mama always sae i bullied her.. oppx!!

n this is so embarrassing.. its happen super super long ago.. n i still remmebered it.. of coz la.. i was kana beaten badly by my mom.. haha.. but its bcoz i tot i clever.. but i nv tot my mom cleverer.. haha.. this happen i think in kindergarten ba.. theres this period of time. where jumper.. overall jumper or suit la.. i forgot le.. wat is tat thing called ar.. den i lazi to take off.. coz its so so so so ma fan.. u haf to take off the 2 buttons at the chest there.. den pull all da way dwn.. so i tot im so clever peeing in my pants and telling my mom tat i accidentally wet myself with the water tap.. oh gross.. but i tot i soooo clever den.. but my darling mama.. is so so clever.. how can a person wet herself rite there.. soooo.. oh uh.. IM CAUGHT!! REDHANDED!!! kana beaten like hell.. ok.. this is sooooo malu.. n y im talking abt it.. but im laughing while typing it..

lets see.. still gt more notti stuffs anot..
hmmp..

how i pissed my dad off.. heng ar.. rite now i can run faster than my dad.. so not scared of him.. oppx.. haha.. at most.. he onli throw cushion at me.. n threaten to use my mom's racket to beat me.. but so far.. beri long nv kana beaten by him liao wor.. hehehe...

how my mama always cant tahan me.. coz wenever she scold me.. i will sae mummy.. relax la.. den she reply relax ni de tou.. den i sae.. y my tou haf to relax?? den she sian diao..

oppx.. i like keep smiling now sia.. haha
oppx..
keep thinking abck abt those days manx..
hwo my life is..
quite to fun to think abt it...
cannot take things for granted..
muz treasure all my good good happi memories..
all locked in my heart..

sealed with love..

caught a crazy girl on 10:18 PM.