since i gt nth better to do..
n so long nv realli write an entry for my blog..
i guess i better write some stuffs..

in a very bad mood for the past few days..
same as my room..
my room is in a beri big mess now coz of spring cleaning..
my floor is filled with so many things..
from water bottle to magazines to files to dried flowers to plastic bags to cd roms to soft toys to calendar to pencil box to many many more...
my room matches my feelings = bad!!

long time since i feel this way..
long time since i realli lost control over myself..
long time since i slp with tears in my eyes.. eat with tears in my eyes.. take a bus with tears in my eyes.. listen to music with tears in my eyes.. go to schl with tears in my eyes.. wake up with tears in my eyes..
the onli time where i dun have tears is wen im slping..
tats y i dun even wish to wake up in the morning today..
i jzu feel so lousi..
so unwanted..
so..
perhap..
tats de real me?
lousi n unwanted..

and this is the first time i get to see so many "i love you" from different ppl..
so shock..
onli 2-3 days..
i get to see so many..
if love is so easily said.. n u can haf love so easily..
y is there so many break ups.. heart breaks..?
love dun exist in my world.. coz i dun believe in it..

actualli i veri happi..
to know that there actualli frenz who will b there for me..
to my all time best gerfrenz jocelyn n jomel..
thanx alot for everything..
jocelyn for being there n willing to listen to me talk.. n willing to scarfic her slp.. to pei me..
jomel for hugging me wenever i need a hug..
without them.. i think i will gone crazy...
to darryl.. i no longer ur kai xin guo le.. but thanx alot for wanting to b there for me n stuffs..
to ivan.. thanx alot for always wanting me to feel better..
to joel.. thanx alot for always trying to make me happi and doing things to cheer me up..
to bk.. thanx for always been there for me...
to fadli.. thanx for always cheering me up...

caught a crazy girl on 4:43 PM.